the_trebuchet

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 11:47:33 GMT

there REALY is something about her....
she's shy and quiet but when we're together i feel so blessed.
like the intro to "Snow (eh oh)"...with the guitar - so poignant and precious. we spent saturday floating around knee high water at sandgate, then had abeer and fish and chips....so simple but SO beneficial and fulfilling.

Mon, 07 Jan 2008 11:42:40 GMT

it's so muggy - been flooding around the area so mozzies are sure to be out soon. all is going swimmingly with the girl - going on 4 months and she's the kindest, sweetest most caring/sensitive/lovely woman in the world. she's a woman not a girl - that's the mistake i've been making. dating silly girls, who aren't sure of a) their sexuality b) themselves c)...stuff. she makes me feel so safe and secure but without being boring or mundane....AND she's freakin gorgeous with a HOT HOT BOD!!!!!!! and she is soooo bloody good in the sack!

the leopard

Thu, 08 Nov 2007 07:22:58 GMT

i am really enjoying c. she had the house to herself last night so i snuck up to surprise her and we spent a night of comfort/passion together. she is so....special, kind and just....great. she has the nicest bodd (she cycles) and when she holds me it's like being in bed with a leopard...mmm...long lean and muscular.
she has this way of making me feel so safe...already! i've never dated a capricorn...had a three week fling with one which was hell but this is SO different. i have no complaints so far! and just want to make her happy...

...

Thu, 25 Oct 2007 14:09:25 GMT

i've met a girl - she seems grounded, is intellectualy stimulating, hot, and funny.

i really like her and for now - she likes me.

my past experiences have jaded me a little and i feel FEAR - all in caps!!!

embarassed...

Tue, 24 Jul 2007 11:48:52 GMT

forgive me lj for i have sinned...it has been...drat i just had another dirty thought.

ok - here's the lowdown....i like...no i LOVE whitney houston.

i screech along to her songs and may have bought an item or two off ebay which contained her songs.

so what....

i'm a chile of the 80's.

whitney HAS to be cool - they play "i wanna dance with somebody" in most clubs so she must still appeal to the mainstream. sure i go for heart breakers like "didn't we almost have it all" and "i have nothing"....but maybe i just like the way she expresses herself.

*HMP* who CARES is whitney is unpopular - she's always be the coolest 80s chick to me - step aside transvision vamp, kylie, collette and all those other try-hards: whitney rocks!!!!!

more in xs

Sun, 22 Jul 2007 11:57:53 GMT

my fave song is actually "kiss the dirt"....
"Kiss The Dirt (Falling Down the Mountain)"

Playing in the dirt
We find the seeds of doubt
Don't water them with your tears
Don't think about all the years
You'd rather be without

Eden let's me in
I find the seeds of love
And climb upon the highwire
I kiss and tell all my fears

Falling down the mountain
End up kissing dirt
Look a little closer
Sometimes it wouldn't hurt

Playing in the dirt
We find the seeds of fun
And we scream like alleycats
Tearing down what we attack
To prove that we are one

Cutting through the night
And we find the seeds of lust
And loose our minds on one intent
These passions never seem to end

to try or to not try - too hard.

Sun, 22 Jul 2007 11:43:48 GMT

i'm not sure what the consensus is - but i always looked up to michael hutchense. sure, i WAS only 8 when it came out but i remember it all:
-expo 88
-listening to the cassette with my uncle gaz(in his cool new awd subaru) while he visited from tamworth
...all sorts of stuff. a lot a don't think i've ever really broached.

my grandad dies that year. as did my best friend at the time - he was kidnapped.*sigh* i hate using lj as an angst tool but i guess that was a painful year for me. it was at least a year i remember well. susannah george pulling a seat out from under me and making me cry in front of the class.mr ian johnston being so supportive and kind to me - i don't think i was self reflective enough to know what was going on within me - it was so much.

in the dark of night....

Sun, 22 Jul 2007 11:37:05 GMT

i've got worms - 1,000 of them!

Sat, 21 Jul 2007 10:40:43 GMT

i have worms...no not THOSE kind.

I've started a worm farm and it is so much fun. i just wish i had worm-cam to see what they're doing in there. i also bought a little bin to put all our food scraps in (and it has a nice label..."scrap whore" ha ha ) so that they have lots of yummy stuff to eat.

i also bought some fruit trees (lemon,orange) and they smell SOOOO good.

i gre up on master bates

Wed, 18 Jul 2007 12:43:38 GMT

Tue, 17 Jul 2007 10:42:17 GMT

insignificance

Tue, 17 Jul 2007 10:18:58 GMT

a 4wd crashed through some shops at beaudesert yesterday and killed a woman who was at the front desk of an ljhookers.
she had just returned from lunch with a muffin and coffee from 'everydays'. it's a routine
that we all seem to follow.there are 2 cafes in beaudesert - everydays and the beaui cafe.
these are all trivial details,but that seems to be the only thing we have to comfort ourselves.
beaudesert is a really tight knit community.we all know each other and every one else's going on.
the word is - that the man had driven his wife and child off the road (2kms out of town)
and then driven into the building purposefully.from the angle of the collision it certainly looks like that - it's a five way intersection and regardless of where he came from
the fact that he ended up in lj hookers is...just weird. it's 3 shops away from the corner

it makes me sad that someone could do this.i hope it was a heart attack but from all accounts this will not be
the finding. i hope it is, i don't want to that people are capable of this.in my angriest moments i could never imagine hurting anyone-let alone a stranger.
i would drive into a tree - jump off a bridge, if i wanted to do something like that.

lots of people knew sue - she had looked after her elderly mother for years and now had her horse and dog
as company, perhaps its a good thing that she didn't leave behind children to mourn her.

there are heaps of stories - of people who were about to go down to the bakery(which is just past the lj hookers) but stopped to make a call or send an email,
people who were seconds off being hit.my housemate thinks i'm being a drama queen, but this is seriously a one street town where we all walk to get
coffees, lunches, stop off at the newsagent.it hurts that a life was taken, so quickly and without provocation. it scares me that it may have been
an attempt on the part of the 4wd driver to injure others.it scares me that people may wander around, and we may know these people who are literally ticking time bombs.
what if it had been in the queen st mall or adelaide street , edward intersection. hundreds of people cross there at all times of the day.are our lives really so...fragile, insignificant that
they can be taken so quickly and without warning?
my friend has been pressuring me into going on a holiday/taking a roadtrip with her. "why are you always looking for an excuse not to have a holiday?", she says.."you need to be more spontanous - like you used to be.." about a week ago we were talking and she said "you're so...non-commital.my ticket could be up any day you know," all of this
made me feel a little guilty but i didn't give it that much thought until yesterday. i am building and building...saving...investing...and what if it's taken from me. what if these moments
i should have enjoyed were gone forever.if there is a heaven/hell/afterlife will i be regeretting these lost opportunities?

i bought some flowers and printed out a card to place at the site, it read "“While we are mourning the loss of our friend, others are rejoicing to meet him behind the veil.”

a couple of pics of my weekend with the kids

Mon, 16 Jul 2007 08:41:57 GMT

who else but a 7 year old would think to
a)put their fingers deep into a container of butter
b)erect stick up in the middle of nowhere
c)hide under the doonah and talk...while standing up at the beach

legit

Sun, 15 Jul 2007 13:15:55 GMT

ok - this is the REAL reason im so happy.

today

Sun, 15 Jul 2007 13:11:46 GMT

things i love today:
onions on the bbq
looking for "pippies"
pciking up broken glass (off the beach) and throwing in the bin
hiding under the doonah from the cold cold weather
MY house
MY friends
pushing my body to the limit on my jogse/soccer/basketball
MY family
kelly clarkson's so so cool songs
.
.
.
being alive, smelling the salty air and knowing i control my own destiny

tiny dancer in my hand

Sun, 15 Jul 2007 12:37:23 GMT

I have a great life
i don't want to rub people's noses, but i am HAPPY. i always am, but this is probably one of the few times i have been happy and it hasn't been tied to someone else ie romantically based.
i have spent a great weekend looking after bratty kids, catching guppies, fishing and being chased around with all sorts of smelly/rotting aqua-flesh.

i get on with kids.i like how one dimensional the interactions are- one second we're playing soccer, then it's wrestling and then we run off and have a snack. none of this d and m stuff. don't get me wrong-i like to analyse stuff etc - but it is so nice to just...not think for a whole weekend and let go.

*ps - i have a massive internet crush on a Beatiful...breath-takingly gorgeous girl. i want to send her popcorn and marshmallows and catch guppies with her in a creek,take her home cook her dinner(sans potatoe and blah blah).if i knew what size shoe this cinderella wore i may just purchase some beauties....

antidepressants

Mon, 09 Jul 2007 11:46:50 GMT

i waited for my friend to get home....

she enters the door - "OH MY GOD! guess what???? Terri has put her dog on prozac!!!!" i paused to punctuate the ridiculousness of the situation. i expect an eyeroll...exclamation...something.

"that's nothing. kate had her goldfish on antidepressants".

every episode of dr harry seems to have a dog with obsessive compulsive - do our pets really need antidepressants? why not spend more time with them and make them happy.

teeth

Tue, 19 Jun 2007 09:55:24 GMT

i am really attracted to people with overbites. i can't help it, and it seems so wrong - to thing something is so hot when the people who have them see them as a deformity. i also love braces but only teens seem to have them these days.

have been looking at places at tamborine mountain and canungra so could be making a decision soon about where to lay my hat.

was a bit shitty/ down over the weekend cause of complications that i really should be over. but is all good now.

yay

Wed, 06 Jun 2007 11:13:14 GMT

yay - ive finished my final paper for this semester. FINALLY - now i can go back to fun times! like...work, doing my aunts resume, yay :P

my weekend

Mon, 04 Jun 2007 06:52:03 GMT

in point form:
*i scored a goal on the weekend! yay - we won 4:2.
*i have really sore muscles, a tight neck and my calves are like rocks.ouch.
*i am annoyed - why is corridor spelt as such...it should be corriDOOR! duh.

my skill...

Mon, 04 Jun 2007 03:08:38 GMT

i don't know if this counts as a skill/ talent...or instinct..but i am...well you know how somepeople can be really busy at work and go without eating and feel like they're so hungry they're going to be sick. well i never do that. i always eat, my body knows that it go for so long before it needs sustenance. and i eat...that is my talent. won't build save the forests or bring world peace but makes me smile :)

Smile like you mean it

Tue, 22 May 2007 11:04:27 GMT

i LOVE the killers - their lyrics / music...it all speaks to me. i like how they're kind of abstract.

I am loving work - learning so much, feeling like i'm doing something that actually affects people's lives - in a good way i hope. getting to really know the people i work with and enjoy their company.

soccer is going really well - i'm slowly building up my fitness and getting compliments for my muscle tone(i'm lucky, some people put on weight really easily - i tone easily). the team's cool - there's a little bit of discord but it's not personal just people disagreeing over tactics etc.

getting on well with family and friends. life's pretty cruisy.

*ouch* just got bitten by a mosquito grrr. mozzies love me. awww...i hate being itchy.

*the new girl on BB is cute.
*i don't like hayley or andrew and am glad she got the flick
*i think he is acting like a big sook - although when my first gf went overseas for 6 months i cried non stop for 2 days...starting a day before she left. i then cried intermittently for about a week and then toughened up...that's when she started crying haha. i guess it's kind of harsh to knock people for acting like that - they're in love and we should make love not war.
*I don't follow BB closely enough to comment except to say that noone really endears themselves to me
*i hope you all have a great week!

ps - here are pics of that dang mozzie after i got thru with him

battleground

Sun, 20 May 2007 09:25:26 GMT

it must be such a tough life being a toy

i love this guy!!!!

Wed, 16 May 2007 11:01:46 GMT

he's awesome

Wed, 11 Apr 2007 08:45:21 GMT

can anyone explain to me how 1 v 1,000,000 works? i'm probably very stupid but i don't get it, then again i don't get the CONtest so it probably is me.